Comments on: Memories of Mau http://www.inmemoryofmau.com In loving memory of our dear friend. Mon, 20 Oct 2008 13:40:43 -0700 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.5 hourly 1 By: Sasha Daucus http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-207 Sasha Daucus Mon, 20 Oct 2008 13:40:43 +0000 #comment-207 Lauren, Nice to hear of a relative of Mau's who discovered her in such a serendipitous way. Do you live in Missouri? if you'd like to talk further about Mau, please feel free to contact me. I lived with Mau for the last 24 years of her life, and have some contact to her other relatives and old friends from New Jersey, too. Warmly, Sasha Daucus sashad@semo.net Lauren,

Nice to hear of a relative of Mau’s who discovered her in such a serendipitous way. Do you live in Missouri? if you’d like to talk further about Mau, please feel free to contact me. I lived with Mau for the last 24 years of her life, and have some contact to her other relatives and old friends from New Jersey, too.

Warmly,
Sasha Daucus
sashad@semo.net

]]> By: Lauren Espenkotter http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-206 Lauren Espenkotter Mon, 20 Oct 2008 04:13:12 +0000 #comment-206 I am thankful for this beautiful website. I just found out today that Mau was a distant relative of mine, and I found out this information in a serendipitous way. A close friend, also a friend of Mau's, used Mau as an example to inspire me. The mention of her name sparked a memory of something my mother once mentioned about having a relative in Missouri when I moved here 5 years ago from NY. I called my mother and confirmed that this is the same person. Well she is and I am humbled. I now see, through the words on this page, that we had many of the same interests and I can only hope to touch even a fraction of the people Mau seems to have touched. I regret never meeting this strong woman but will allow her light to illuminate and inspire my future. I am thankful for this beautiful website. I just found out today that Mau was a distant relative of mine, and I found out this information in a serendipitous way. A close friend, also a friend of Mau’s, used Mau as an example to inspire me. The mention of her name sparked a memory of something my mother once mentioned about having a relative in Missouri when I moved here 5 years ago from NY. I called my mother and confirmed that this is the same person. Well she is and I am humbled. I now see, through the words on this page, that we had many of the same interests and I can only hope to touch even a fraction of the people Mau seems to have touched. I regret never meeting this strong woman but will allow her light to illuminate and inspire my future.

]]> By: Dennis http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-157 Dennis Sat, 06 Sep 2008 22:21:13 +0000 #comment-157 Even though we didn't meet in person but a few times, she made her presence known in my life through the occasional phone conversation and the several e-mail messages we exchanged. I first met Mau through one of her drum circle workshops as I was recovering from stage 4 Kidney cancer. She had a way of making everyone there completely at ease and able to share their own stories. I spent the first part of my life as a professional musician and was greatly impressed with Mau's musical ability. Her leadership, bringing peaceful awareness to a group of strangers united only by a desire to share thru music and stories is something I try to emulate in my work as a music teacher. I have had a hard time accepting that her physical body is no longer here with us. I still have her address in my email and phone number programmed into my phone. Living in trying times, it was great being able to vent and hear the experiences of one on a path to self awareness. I loved reading the e-mails she sent me about the drum circles I wasn't able to attend. The recounting of her retreat with Pema was also something that I really appreciated. My mentor Orff teacher in Colorado was also a student of Pema's. I wish the two of them could've met. Even though we didn’t meet in person but a few times, she made her presence known in my life through the occasional phone conversation and the several e-mail messages we exchanged. I first met Mau through one of her drum circle workshops as I was recovering from stage 4 Kidney cancer. She had a way of making everyone there completely at ease and able to share their own stories. I spent the first part of my life as a professional musician and was greatly impressed with Mau’s musical ability. Her leadership, bringing peaceful awareness to a group of strangers united only by a desire to share thru music and stories is something I try to emulate in my work as a music teacher. I have had a hard time accepting that her physical body is no longer here with us. I still have her address in my email and phone number programmed into my phone. Living in trying times, it was great being able to vent and hear the experiences of one on a path to self awareness. I loved reading the e-mails she sent me about the drum circles I wasn’t able to attend. The recounting of her retreat with Pema was also something that I really appreciated. My mentor Orff teacher in Colorado was also a student of Pema’s. I wish the two of them could’ve met.

]]> By: Deborah Wright http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-42 Deborah Wright Mon, 04 Feb 2008 22:31:49 +0000 #comment-42 Before Mau passed over I wrote her a letter. I am sharing some of that letter in her memory. Mau... There is a place in me where I keep some much treasured memories of moments we shared. One such time was a day in June in your yard where beautiful flowers were bursting with color and sweet fragrance was carried on a warm breeze. We walked talking as friends and it was easy between us. The words were not so important. It was the essence of what passed between us, the essence of the moment. I was lifted up by what must have been a soul connection and remember thinking, "Oh, this is what happiness feels like". And in that moment I knew. Another special time was when you were telling me about how you gained the confidence of your pet fish, Whitey, and how he allowed you to stroke his body with your finger. I was mesmerized. Then you invited me in to see this incredible act of trust and connection between you and your fish. What a sight when Whitey swam up to your finger and let you gently pet him. It was such a beautiful thing and I am glad I got to see that way you are with your animals. There was a crystal clear moment one day when you played your bass for me. You said later that this was something you did not usually do but it had just felt OK at the time. We were talking and you were telling me about how you were learning to play the bass. Then you brought it out to show me. With no words you just began playing. The music you made that day was some of the most moving music I have ever heard. I can still hear the notes. It seemed to me that you touched into some higher musical plane. It was very inspiring and had an ethereal quality. I do not know for sure what happened but I do know I really enjoyed your musical spontaneity. Thank you, Mau, for these special memories, these wonderful gifts and many more. Because of you there has been goodness and light brought into this world. Thank you for letting your light really shine. Before Mau passed over I wrote her a letter. I am sharing some of that letter in her memory.
Mau…

There is a place in me where I keep some much treasured memories of moments we shared. One such time was a day in June in your yard where beautiful flowers were bursting with color and sweet fragrance was carried on a warm breeze. We walked talking as friends and it was easy between us. The words were not so important. It was the essence of what passed between us, the essence of the moment. I was lifted up by what must have been a soul connection and remember thinking, “Oh, this is what happiness feels like”. And in that moment I knew.

Another special time was when you were telling me about how you gained the confidence of your pet fish, Whitey, and how he allowed you to stroke his body with your finger. I was mesmerized. Then you invited me in to see this incredible act of trust and connection between you and your fish. What a sight when Whitey swam up to your finger and let you gently pet him. It was such a beautiful thing and I am glad I got to see that way you are with your animals.

There was a crystal clear moment one day when you played your bass for me. You said later that this was something you did not usually do but it had just felt OK at the time. We were talking and you were telling me about how you were learning to play the bass. Then you brought it out to show me. With no words you just began playing. The music you made that day was some of the most moving music I have ever heard. I can still hear the notes. It seemed to me that you touched into some higher musical plane. It was very inspiring and had an ethereal quality. I do not know for sure what happened but I do know I really enjoyed your musical spontaneity.

Thank you, Mau, for these special memories, these wonderful gifts and many more. Because of you there has been goodness and light brought into this world. Thank you for letting your light really shine.

]]> By: Shanti Day http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-37 Shanti Day Sun, 03 Feb 2008 04:20:52 +0000 #comment-37 I felt blessed to be invited to witness the birth of Paul and Tennessee's twins, Solita and Joakima. Mau and Sasha delivered the babies at home. The joy in the room was ecstatic. Now the twins are 16 year old beauties who share our highways. I feel kindred with Mau and Sasha, as our spiritual journeys and life-work learning alternative methods of healing resonated with each other over the many years. Mau is as alive now as she has been since the birth of her soul. She loves us. Her love did not stem from the body but from her spirit which is an eternal being. I felt blessed to be invited to witness the birth of Paul and Tennessee’s twins, Solita and Joakima. Mau and Sasha delivered the babies at home. The joy in the room was ecstatic. Now the twins are 16 year old beauties who share our highways.

I feel kindred with Mau and Sasha, as our spiritual journeys and life-work learning alternative methods of healing resonated with each other over the many years.

Mau is as alive now as she has been since the birth of her soul. She loves us. Her love did not stem from the body but from her spirit which is an eternal being.

]]> By: Sasha Daucus http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-35 Sasha Daucus Thu, 31 Jan 2008 23:58:55 +0000 #comment-35 Dear Nancy, You and I only knew each other from the letters that passed between your house and Golden Light. I remember the beautiful pictures you sent of your garden and the lovely photos of Rya. I remember how warmly Mau remembered you. As much as a person can speak for someone else, I want to say on Mau's behalf that you have no need to feel guilt over not telling her. Maus' connections with people were often nonverbal. She liked that (commenting that I was much too verbal on occasion). If you were connecting with her in your heart, and I know that you were, that was plenty and good. Thank you for sharing your story. Dear Nancy,

You and I only knew each other from the letters that passed between your house and Golden Light. I remember the beautiful pictures you sent of your garden and the lovely photos of Rya. I remember how warmly Mau remembered you. As much as a person can speak for someone else, I want to say on Mau’s behalf that you have no need to feel guilt over not telling her. Maus’ connections with people were often nonverbal. She liked that (commenting that I was much too verbal on occasion). If you were connecting with her in your heart, and I know that you were, that was plenty and good.

Thank you for sharing your story.

]]> By: Nancy "Jaguar" Best (formerly Cokely) http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-31 Nancy "Jaguar" Best (formerly Cokely) Mon, 28 Jan 2008 02:23:35 +0000 #comment-31 On 8/3/79, Mau and Tae drove 2 hours in the middle of the night to P Hwy in Willow Springs to deliver Rya Fawn. Their knowledge of working with gravity saved me from what would have been a hospital forcep delivery, without even a tear! I got to attend a few births with them and had I not moved to Portland OR in 1982, I would have studied midwifery with them. Mau's strong spirit and intense drive to work on herself and evolve have always affected my life. Though we lost touch over the years (my own fault), Mau has always been there. Whenever I had a major life decision to make, I would know in the back of my mind that Mau would be behind me 150%! Mau's transition announcement came on a profound day. That day I attended an astrological lecture on death in the chart. I gave the presenter permission to use Rya as an example. Unfortunetly Rya made her unexpected transition just after her 27th birthday. (I hope she was the only one of Mau's babies to help greet her.) When I got home, Mau's announcement was in the mailbox with wolves pictured in her program. The next night I attended a Jan.birthday party where a calendar on the wall was open to Aug. of last year. The picture was of a deer (Rya comes to me in this form) with an inset picture of a wolf. That let me know they've reunited! The next day I took flowers to a memorial site for Rya in a wildlife refuge within walking distance of my house. It was a typical northwest cloudy day. After I read "I Will Not Live an Unlived Life" in their honor, I looked up to be delighted by brilliant red clouds where the unseen sun was setting, letting me know they heard me. I have felt extreme guilt over not telling Mau about Rya. Now I know she knows...and I know she forgives me. Thank you Mau for your part in helping me be another strong woman. On 8/3/79, Mau and Tae drove 2 hours in the middle of the night to P Hwy in Willow Springs to deliver Rya Fawn. Their knowledge of working with gravity saved me from what would have been a hospital forcep delivery, without even a tear! I got to attend a few births with them and had I not moved to Portland OR in 1982, I would have studied midwifery with them. Mau’s strong spirit and intense drive to work on herself and evolve have always affected my life. Though we lost touch over the years (my own fault), Mau has always been there. Whenever I had a major life decision to make, I would know in the back of my mind that Mau would be behind me 150%!
Mau’s transition announcement came on a profound day. That day I attended an astrological lecture on death in the chart. I gave the presenter permission to use Rya as an example. Unfortunetly Rya made her unexpected transition just after her 27th birthday. (I hope she was the only one of Mau’s babies to help greet her.) When I got home, Mau’s announcement was in the mailbox with wolves pictured in her program. The next night I attended a Jan.birthday party where a calendar on the wall was open to Aug. of last year. The picture was of a deer (Rya comes to me in this form) with an inset picture of a wolf. That let me know they’ve reunited! The next day I took flowers to a memorial site for Rya in a wildlife refuge within walking distance of my house. It was a typical northwest cloudy day. After I read “I Will Not Live an Unlived Life” in their honor, I looked up to be delighted by brilliant red clouds where the unseen sun was setting, letting me know they heard me.
I have felt extreme guilt over not telling Mau about Rya. Now I know she knows…and I know she forgives me. Thank you Mau for your part in helping me be another strong woman.

]]> By: Beth Spangler http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-30 Beth Spangler Sun, 27 Jan 2008 19:33:24 +0000 #comment-30 Sasha and Mau delivered Jesse at home all 9 lbs 10 OZ of him. Jesse's delivery was a difficult one for all. Because of Golden Light Birthing and my mother with her Acupuncture, a difficult 10 hours became one of the most amazing moments in my life. . . the birth of my son Jesse. I went on to become an RN and an Acupuncturist, that is really where I comprehended how blessed we were to be alive. I also realized that birthing Jesse at home was the wisest choice David and I could have made. I have three beautiful children, all with different birthing experiences. I thank you Sasha and I am honored to have had you and Mau in our life . . .23 years ago. Sasha and Mau delivered Jesse at home all 9 lbs 10 OZ
of him. Jesse’s delivery was a difficult one for all. Because of Golden Light Birthing and my mother with her Acupuncture, a difficult 10 hours became one of the most amazing moments in my life. . . the birth of my son Jesse. I went on to become an RN and an Acupuncturist, that is really where I comprehended how blessed we were to be alive. I also realized that birthing Jesse at home was the wisest choice David and I could have made. I have three beautiful children, all with different birthing experiences. I thank you Sasha and I am honored to have had you and Mau in our life
. . .23 years ago.

]]> By: Dave Ring http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-29 Dave Ring Sun, 27 Jan 2008 03:56:54 +0000 #comment-29 Like the Switzer's, my son Jesse arrived in an octagon in an Ozark hollow with the guidance of the Golden Light team: professional, prepared and confident. Sasha, I recall that you had just begun an internship during that time and share a special, enduring bond with our family. We send our condolences and love. Like the Switzer’s, my son Jesse arrived in an octagon in an Ozark hollow with the guidance of the Golden Light team: professional, prepared and confident. Sasha, I recall that you had just begun an internship during that time and share a special, enduring bond with our family. We send our condolences and love.

]]> By: elitta january http://www.inmemoryofmau.com/about/comment-page-1/#comment-28 elitta january Fri, 25 Jan 2008 15:19:55 +0000 #comment-28 i was stopped in my tracks when i heard of mau's death. i first met mau over 30 years ago and our lives have touched sporadically ever since. her life as a nurse and midwife gave me courage and enpowered me to become a better nurse and midwife myself. her work with the families of the mentally ill gave comfort and hope to many. her wonderful laugh and hugs are a treasured memory for me. i honor her memory as a warrior in this world. i was stopped in my tracks when i heard of mau’s death. i first met mau over 30 years ago and our lives have touched sporadically ever since. her life as a nurse and midwife gave me courage and enpowered me to become a better nurse and midwife myself. her work with the families of the mentally ill gave comfort and hope to many. her wonderful laugh and hugs are a treasured memory for me. i honor her memory as a warrior in this world.

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